♬ Symphony of Life ♬

on the edge

2012-02-06T00:02:00.002+08:00

nearing 3 months,
you've changed,
the atmosphere between us differs from last time,
i been wondering,
why we became distance?
is it because of me?
was it my fault?
ignoring you in person,
you seemed to dislike it,
but that's how you had treated me?
are you that busy to reply a simply text?
you already pushed me to the edge,
do you intend to make me to fall?
how should i react?
it doesn't seemed fair,
why can't i treat you the same?
when i consciously ignoring you in person,
i really wanted me make you feel the way i felt,
but you still make yourself obvious in front of me to talk with me,
but my words became generously lesser,
i'm already wounded inside,
do you notice that?
or you don't even bother?
this seemed getting out of hand,
why can't we be the way we used to?
God, what should i do?
i only can pray for your guidance,
my heart's sea still roaring,
waiting for you to calm & mend my heart, dear Father God...

the cycle of emotions

2012-01-02T13:28:00.004+08:00

come to think of it,
it's was an awesome 2011,
flashing back the time when it all happened,
how naive i used to be,
i guess it's part of growing up & maturing,
i learnt it's easy to have a crush on someone,
it may dissolve easily too,
or it may linger & mature into love,
you seemed to me a perfect man,
your charms, your flaws are known,
dare not pursue,
due to convictions,
but deep down in me,
i hope for your happiness,
though you might not know of my feelings,
it's better that way,
the part of letting go was even tougher,
i still do feel awkward around you,
but it's getting better now,
i'm grateful to have met you,
you're an awesome person,
thank you very much,
you made me see that i do have someone i already had in mind,
he was there ever since 2009,
but you adverted my feelings for a year,
quite amusing isn't it?
without realizing him from the very beginning,
but now realizing,
i scare of the cycle of hurt would repeat once more,
what should i do?
it's 2012,
i guess best thing to do now,
continue to be good friends,
see where it will take us,
with God continuing guiding & leading me...

Church’s short film collects funds for community clinic

2011-12-29T15:47:00.002+08:00

Church’s short film collects funds for community clinic

2012 is coming!

2011-12-29T15:47:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year!
i'm super duper excited for the new year,
new resolutions made, new goals to achieve,
new friends to make, new experiences,
new lesson to learn, a new journey with God,

##mini testimony##
*rewind back to Christmas*
Life is Heart by Acts Church was AWESOME!
i finally brought my precious non-christian friends to church,
they enjoyed themselves,
thanked God, all glory goes to Him,
i was praying for them, they accepted my invitations without any hesitations,
*Praise God*
hopefully through this, God'll open more doors for them,
i still have 1 more friend to bring who last minute can't make it.

my another two friends also came despite being last minute & stuff like that,
they're christians, i do hope we can grow together in the same church,
still praying for more open doors :)

2012 is coming,
my finals are coming, externals are haunting me,
but i know i can go through it,
with God, nothing is impossible!
'cause He enables me!

Internship been exhausting,
day in day out,
but i did my best,
really can see God's favour upon me,
my colleagues been very nice to me,
working life sure was tough,
well, i'm still moving forward,
one more month left.
i can do this!

*Blessed New Year everyone*

encountered weird people

2011-11-10T16:39:00.000+08:00

heard them asking from house to house,
asking if anyone is at home?
when they reached my house,
i answered, yes.
she answered me, can you fill in our questionnaire?
i asked what's it regarding?
she answered it's about religion.
so i agreed, i didn't know what was i about to face.
a group of people who called themselves 'Christians'.
from Elohim Academy who studies the bible she claimed.
the questions were alright at first,
then the later questions regarding mother God, salvation with water of life,
i felt inside of me, something isn't right, strongly felt they're cult.
after i filled, she took out her bible,
started sharing about mother God, salvation with water of life, Passover,
i stated what i believe, for it shouldn't be that way as she shared,
but she's not giving me a chance to counter attack her point of view,
stating the bible stated so, doubting my salvation, Lord's supper,
i was troubled for a moment,
but thank God, my roommate came,
she was worried why was i taking so long,
but God was with us,
Yaling stated firmly on our beliefs,
not giving in to their sharing or belief,
it went for about half an hour,
they were somehow shocked about the fact that we talked to God through prayers,
we obey through the Holy Spirit's convictions, listening to the Holy Spirit,
Holy Spirit came after Jesus was crucified & etc.
being Christians is just being that salt & light, it's a lifestyle,
Christianity is a relationship not a religion,
to make Jesus's love famous, making disciples of all nations,
not just by understanding the bible through the worldly interpretations,
but through the teaching of the Holy Spirit,
who lead & guide us through every situations.
it somehow ended well,
i praise God for such an encounter,
we prayed for them, for God to have mercy on them,
for they don't know what are they doing,
to make them really encounter God,
to be changed inside out,
to really be a disciple of God.

familiarity

2011-10-20T00:42:00.002+08:00

as i flashback,
remembered the feeling of letting feelings go,
those tears shaded were real,
feelings seemed unbreakable,
pain were indescribable,
though heard confirmations after confirmations,
but the heart was stubborn initially,
still insisted to hold onto it,
in the end,
it decided to really let go,
process of letting go wasn't fast like a bullet train,
instead it felt like running around in a never-ending maze,
many dead ends encountered,
but God sustained & enabled me to do what was right,
currently i feel much better,
but i can still feel a glimpse of it,
God is still working in me,
i'm believing & claiming for complete emotional healing.

little wonders i appreciated

2011-10-16T00:38:00.001+08:00

a little chat with my mentor really do wonders,
she really knows how to guide,
i don't know what i'll do without her,
she's truly amazing, a God-sent sister,
our relationship really grew a lot,
to the point that i'm not even ashamed
in sharing minute problem such as 'heading guys' with her,
her sees things different than i do,
i guess marriage has its advantages,
she been through more than me,
therefore she knows how to tackle a problem well :)
Praise God, He is awesomely amazing!!!

overcoming fear

2011-10-10T01:42:00.006+08:00

Things that are unseen to the naked eye are spiritual,

Fear is real

it is also a spirit,

but it is not of God,

so don't give in to the enermies' attacks,

defend yourself with FULL ARMOR of GOD.

¹⁰ Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. ¹¹ Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. ¹² For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age,^[a] against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenlyplaces. ¹³ Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
¹⁴ Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, ¹⁵ and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; ¹⁶ above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. ¹⁷ And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; ¹⁸ praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints.

my testimony shared during prayer service

2011-10-03T01:20:00.003+08:00

I'm standing here to testify on how God came true for me.

On the first week of my new semester, I lost my mobile phone due to my carelessness. The week after that, I got into a car accident. Subsequently, the following week, my new mobile phone & purse got stolen, again due to my carelessness.I was devastated, challenged emotionally, and overwhelmed.

Despite all this challenges, I know and believe that God is still good. I got my leaders, and homies to pray for me - for strength and wisdom.When i was involved in the car accident, He sent my huddle leader, Michelle Seliong & her husband Sern Yi, all the way to Kajang to help me through everything, from police report, towing my car. God also blessed me a with temporary car when my car was under repair, and I also did not have to pay a single cent, insurance covered the fee of RM1.6K.

I was also blessed by my extended family in Acts Church, Pr. Dave & Acts Campus team who gave me a generous love gift.God answered all of my needs, financially and emotionally. Also, through this experience, my spirit man is strengthen, i really learn to praise Him in tough times, to solely rely on Him. Romans 8.28 - And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

He lifted me up when i stumbled, in my weakness He makes me strong. I can't do all these without Him. He placed us in difficult situations knowing that we can overcome it & He is in control over our lives. He made all things beautiful according to His time too.Just want to encourage those who are going through tough times, to remember God is still good. All glory to God.

mini testimony: sharing in church was really scary, no other words to describe it, but i was blessed even by sharing with my fellow brothers & sisters in Christ, many came up to me & said they were blessed by my testimony, it really encouraged me, i really took God's boldness & courage to share it, He made all things beautiful, Praise God! :)

new exciting journey awaits me

2011-10-02T19:45:00.003+08:00

Another journey yet to be conquered,

the transit which determines everything,

more responsibilities bestowed upon,
mind blowing challenges ahead,

expectations rising,

the unknown will be mastered,

i know He's there to guide & lead me,

it'll thrilling yet i'm fearful at the same time,

that's why i have Him to reassure me,

it is time to go another level,

to that destination which will widen my horizon,

to mature in Him,
while enjoying my salvation,

less of me & more of Him,
i'm ready; let's go,
with my hand holding His.

heart of thanksgiving

2011-09-11T23:27:00.004+08:00

Was flashing back & saw how different i used to be back then, saw how discipleship relationship with my mentor changed my life. i willingly submitted my life to her, as God-sent leader, who is going to bring me up another level spiritually, to fight a good fight while on earth, to embrace all of my fears, know that she accepted me as who i am, love & care for me as God do, willingly allowing myself to be moulded, to be into a better me under His wise guidance, she is truly a role model that i'd follow, my beloved sister, a person close to my heart, really thankful & appreciated all that she had done for me, i really saw how God transformed me just by using another sister, i'd love to be that too, i know i can, by God's grace & guidance i can! He is truly a God whose awesomeness is limitless! Praise God! thank you for blessing me with a great mentor <3

our huddle <3

i gotta get more of You

2011-08-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

Jesus i love You with all that i am,

give it up to the One who saved you,

give it up to the One who gave you life,

give it up to the One who made you,

give it up to the Lover of your soul.

Planetshakers-Nothing is Impossible album: Give it up.

this song touched my heart...

rough times all at once...

2011-08-09T00:23:00.007+08:00

I went through alot these past three weeks after a long break from Kuching. Lost my mobile phone on 23/7, that phone itself was a replacement for a lost one about 2 years ago.Then the following week, i got into a minor car accident, no one got harm, both sides car damage were equally bad, his was a Toyota Vios, mine was a Produa Elite Viva, thank God that both of us were unharmed.

It happened in a shopping parking, funny right? I was on the way back, thought to drop by to do a quick grocery shopping before heading back to SJ, then it happened. Both of us hardly talk, he fiercely said i was driving fast, i argued back saying no, i did not, you're the driving fast. Then both of us were on the phone, scanning through the damage that we caused.

I called my dad, explained roughly, then i passed it to the guy, i don't even know what're talking about but, (we're middle of the road, obviously blocking the traffic) we both drove our cars, my car was making noise due to the damage, so i don't drive far & parked from where it all happened, i was surprise he didn't stop to talk after that, he just went off without saying a word nor demanding anything from me. & so i was browsing through my contact list, i have very few names on it, 'cause most of my contacts were lost. So when i come to realized it happened so quickly, i broke down in tears so some reason i couldn't explain, thank God my parents didn't scold me, instead they comforted me.

I was thinking who to ask help from who stays around that area, but then i realized most of my contacts were from SJ area, it's very inconvenient for them to drive down to rescue me. My mom then suggested my mentor's name, i did thought of it, but i know she's very far away from me. But i left no choice but to call her, then she rejected my calls, then sent me a text saying, what's up? i'm in a meeting now?:) i summarized everything to her in a short text. She called me right away. I was sobbing the whole time while trying to explain to her & my parents. It was havoc for me. She said don't worry, she'll help me as much as she could. She & her husband contacted the toll car for me (which came later than them) & came all the way from SJ (took them 2hours due to peak hour), ditch their meeting, cancel her huddle meeting, her husband was sick too. Everything went smoothly thank God, LiTheen came to check out what happened after Jason told her. Thank God for them too & Yaling was well.

Lastly, last Sunday, my new mobile phone & pursue were stolen too, i was in shocked in i realized, checked 3 times, it's wasn't there, Yaling was nearby, i told her, my mobile phone was stolen, i can see that she was shocked too, i can't believe it, its happening again, same place too, i was in a short standstill, then i can't hold back my tears, YL, Jocelyn came, YL told her what happened, she just hugged me tightly, its alright, its not your fault, i can't stop crying, then many came by, comforting me, asking me what happened, called my mobile, it was ringing but no one answered.

Then my mentor came out of the blue, came to ask me what happened? i told her everything, she just hugged me till i calm down. Pastors, leaders came, all looking & explaining to each other, i can see that pastor was anger on what's happening. They were all helping looking for it. Then everything went on, talked to many, many called my mobile, many came to comfort me, pat on my shoulder, i was hurt, upset of myself & blaming it on myself, no of is at fault except me, i felt that i brought troubles in, i felt even upset, when i thought of my parents, they were quite disappointed from the previous one, now what should i tell them, that thought keep spinning in my head, tears just keep flowing.

Deep down i was apologizing to everything involved in this, sorry to cause you such troublesome matter, sorry to bring the bad news, sorry for making you worry, sorry, i'm very sorry. My mentor pulled me out, saying we should do a police report, and so we did, she asked me precisely what to do after we did the report, called my parents, parents was furious, i just let them scold me as much as they like, then i was promise not to go out after she sent me home, i went home, sat quietly & recalling what had happened. I just cry & prayed, after i calmed myself down, sent a text to my parents, that this will not happen again, promised to be extra extra extra careful & so on.

They called me again, but they didn't scold me, instead, they were lecturing, so i listened. I'm glad they don't scold, i don't think i can take another scolding, then later i received a call from Tiff, saying she wanted to come over. I kindly reject, but she insisted, Not long after that, she came with Ellie, wants to see whether i'm fine or not, then later Ellie gave me a white envelop, saying this is a love gift from all of them, hope it'll help me in time of need. I was grateful & appreciated the thought, but i reluctantly accepted it. The amount was more than the value of my stolen mobile phone, i was surprised. I don't need this, i immediately i wanted to return it... my story ends with the love gift on my hands, praying what should i do with this, but i'd really want to talk to pastor about it, hopefully he'll accept it. In the end, i accepted it through many considerations with my mentor, accepted it as God's gift unto me. I'm so blessed by them, it'll remembered, a BIG thank you to those who contributed, it meant a lot to me, only God's best for you all. Blessings guys!

My testimony is that though it seemed overwhelming when it all happened at once, but i still believe my God is always good, nothing can shake me away from my trust in Him, through these i learn to lean on Him, solely rely on Him, to really learn the meaning of praising Him in rough times, i also remembered reading that God won't allow things to happen to you when you can't overcome it. All thing happened for a reason, God let it happen so that i can learn something valuable from these. When bad things happened, i must constantly reminding myself that i must praise Him not matter what's the circumstances. Thou the devil meant it for evil, to kill, steal & destroy, God meant it for good to those who loves Him. I know He's in control over my life, He still loves me, He still there for me when i needed the most, i must stand firm in my faith, i'm more than conquerors in His name! without lending the devil taking the glory. I was so encouraged by this verse, Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.
His ways are higher than mine, so i'll keep the faith, knowing that He treasures me. Even if there were many lemons threw at you, at the end, you'll have sweet lemonade. Look at life in God's way, which is full of hope. Be encouraged! :) Praise God! All the glory goes to God!

hush... hush

2011-07-15T00:11:00.002+08:00

what should i do to quieten down this heart?
i'm felt that i'm stuck in an endless cycle,
running through something familiar,
yet it became unexplainable,
what've you gotten me into this time?
can't you just leave me in peace?
leave me in a place whereby there's less worry,
less confusion, less frustration,
a heart which is out of my control,
drives me crazy countlessly,
hush hush won't you?

Window

2011-06-26T21:50:00.007+08:00

looking out from of my window,

vast scenery it seemed,

enjoyed the evening's cooling breeze & dawn's chilling breeze,

but beyond that, i see something beautiful,

it reminded me of you,

thought i been looking at the same scenery a million times,

but i can't seemed to look at it as before,

i see your warm smile,

it was the same for the past 3 years,

when i realized, it's gradually changing,

i wonder why?

the warmth of smile were warm, joyful & sincere,

it had always been that way,

but now i been curious behind your smile,

why?

been troubled & confused,

questions & more questions to be answered,

but deep down i know that i can't bring myself to ask,

so i shall do so,

why? you have always been there,

but why everything is slowly changing?

nothing but curiosity arises,

i can't seemed to be in control of my emotions & feelings,

easily moved by movies, dramas, novels, songs,

tears which easily flow with the mood,

sigh, didn't know why am i like this?

though i know they're merely acting,

as they cry, i cry as well,

sometimes i find myself amusing,

as i slowing being curious behind your smile,

i come to realized that i had already move on,

move on from the 'star' that i fell for a year,

but i didn't regret it,

it was worth it, but it doesn't meant to be,

guess love is really like this,

to me, love is like investing in shares/bonds which are volatile,

never knowing when will you gain profit or deficit,

love really makes the world go round,

without it, i guess life is worthless,

even God emphasizes the importance of love,

'cause He is love, God is love,

that's how love is,

now i get it, why some people willingly throw their lives for their beloved,

suicidal seemed be to the answer for those who doesn't know God,

'cause their love that they yearn for which they can't have,

meant the world for them,

but i thank God i have Him,

for without Him,

i'll never be out circle of the world's view of love,

we can always find & develop new love,

its not easy i admit,

you'll be excited & also grief,

but that's how your character are moulded in His image of you,

He's 24/7 with you & for you,

that's why its much easier to rely on Him,

for He has the best form of love to offer you,

make you see love in a different perspective,

to learn to love the right way,

to pursue it in His way,

for He is wise,

He understands,

He adores you & me,

He's really something out of the world,

a God who is

compassion, patient, forgiving, powerful, humble, all-mighty, merciful,

for He will never place you in situations that you can't face,

He knows us by name,

though i may not be entirely control over my life,

i know He is...

accept Him in your life,

you'll never regret it,

'cause i didn't,

life is too short for regrets...

cute fishes :D

2011-06-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

the mud-skipper

the sea turtle & shark

Dory's cousin? :D

Eel saying hi?

crossroad

2011-05-30T22:31:00.002+08:00

flashing back...

seeing so much had happened...

didn't think i'd see you again...

you used to be a scenery where there's nothing but pitch black...

but now you had transformed into a walk path that leads to a crossroad...

left or right, where should i go?

i hope i won't make the same mistake again...

feelings i thought had disappeared long ago...

somehow its coming back again...

ignorant won't help these familiar feelings to dissolve...

why?

you should have never return...

i beg you to leave me again...

i don't want to suffocate another time 'cause of you...

sometime when i thought i already grew strong...

somewhat i'm weak inside...

this journey is never going to be easy,

but i know the path i must walk is the path that shines of Your light...

that darkness will never linger on me...

embraced by Your glorious love which sets me free...

thou i might be no one on earth...

but i'm a bride waiting for Your arrival...

believing & keeping the faith...

2 candles on my cakes

2011-05-02T02:17:00.005+08:00

i want to give all the glory to God who blessed me with gifts,
friends & fellowship throughout my birthday week.
2 of my close classmates, not only supports me in my studies,
who also gave me a present 5 days in advance, wow :D thanks Lijane & Gheeyan!
the following day (4 days ahead)
my best friends (Ruiwen, Melisa & Lijing) & Waihoong (who used to bully me during my star days :P)
who organized a cook-out which turned out to be a surprise birthday party,
who even taught me mahjong :D haha! i had fun sighing too!
:D LOVE YOU GIRLS TO BITS! i love your presents too! chocolate-kun :D WH, thanks for coming :)
during Revo Ipoh (1 day before) too, a big THANK YOU to
Emily, Yaling, Jocelyn, Florence, Weisee, Jason, Gabriel, Yigin, Euvin & 3 other guys from the Revo Ipoh team who celebrated my birthday without me realizing, i didn't know that dense was i. :D oh man...
the journey to Ipoh was awesome & yeah, i drove to Ipoh, the furthest for now, used to be Seremban.
today, i felt as if i was really treated like a so called superstar,
i can't even count the number of people who wished me happy birthday,
honestly i'm a shy person, i don't know how to react, 'cause its my 1st time i received such attentionsss,
'cause i can say that, this is my 1st time staying back KL & celebrated my birthday, usually i'll be back Kuching to celebrate with my parents 1st then my Kuching friends. :)
i even have Pastors, H1 leaders who i think wished me for the 1st time, i felt awesome la... :D
even in church, many sang the birthday song for me, which really touched my heart :) thanks guys....
i want to thank my mentor, Michelle, for her unique birthday present, a gift that will rise me up another level, i'll do my best for Him & His people! thanks for everything & the cake with 1 candle :D haha! i'm also one year old :D yeah! not bad right?
and also big thank you to Florence for the present, its the 2nd pig i received...
it's really cute & pink! LOL! i love your long love letter too, so thoughtful of you, eventhough you SS alot in the letter, but thank you very much! :)
oh yeah, i was sort of bullied by a bunch of seniors before the exit, Ann-Marie, Pam, Lucas :P
lastly, i ended my day with Jocelyn & Yaling over a simple dinner, we have a good time sharing, i never knew how strong were they, but now i know, they blessed me with their awesome testimonies & fellowship :) you girls rock, continue to rock for God!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH for all of the birthday posted on facebook & text messages :) you guys made my day, really & totally... :)

Piggie & Chocolate :D

struggles

2011-04-20T01:29:00.005+08:00

what's happening around the corner?

Good Friday & Easter Sunday! i'm definitely looking forward to it.

the day Jesus Christ died & risen from the death!

Isn't He super duper awesome? :)

God been challenging me in, how can i describe it? care for someone?

2 names kept appearing in my mind,

He challenges me in the area of CARE for people,

been sharing about it to Yaling (roommate) & my mentor,

thank God they understand me.

a friend whose having relationship issues & facing persecution,

another friend is i found so much potential in her,

yet she's the type that still doesn't want to leave her comfort zone,

doesn't like changes, inflexible sometimes, somewhat too dependable on me?

which that's why i'm still struggling with it,

i have many new people to care for,

but i felt that she wants more than what i'm already giving,

my mentor been asking me to find someone to mentor,

in the end, God did answered my prayers,

but i didn't thought that these two is are the ones,

Michelle said, she can see that i been struggling with these two names,

so she knew that God place them into my care,

its true, i can ignore them if i want to,

but i can't seem to do so, their names kept popping out for some reason,

mentoring is about speaking life into someone's life,

care for them, bring them up to another level,

it can be unofficial thing, since both of them have leaders/mentors too,

but i'm the one that they share personal stuff too,

so yea, its no easy, i tell you, its really another new level to conquer,

new experience to mature in my own ministry,

for God knows that i'm ready, so i know i can do it. :)
'cause without His grace, mercy & love, i'm truly a selfish person,
without a big heart, that's why i need His heart,
to love & care for them unconditionally.

whereas, in serving, host/usher & hospitality ministry that i'm in,

they're slowing rising me up, begin to take charge,

another new level to conquer!

:) God knows i capable of so i'll do it unto Him.

He's slowing moulding me into a leader,

'cause the desire to be a leader in me is getting stronger.

I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me. Amen!

i'm also glad that few of my close friends see a change in my spirituality,

even my mentor said so today,

she asked me,

do you know what you grew so much already?

i said, maybe a little? i think :)

she smiled, you grew a lot already :)

i'm glad that they see the changes in me,

for honestly, i can't see myself,

guess i'm following God's flow,

but i think i want to change to better myself,
to be fully utilize for God.

Actspresso team (hospitality ministry of Acts Church)
BoonMean, Michelle, Amanda, LiTheen, Me & Josephine :D

conviction

2011-03-23T01:53:00.004+08:00

i had been living in denial for half a year,
words from my mentor which i didn't want to hear,
which made me realised that i'm been such a foolish girl,
ended up being hurt by my own feelings,
feelings which will never reach his,
he'll never know, nor i have a chance to do so.
i had said it to myself (from the last person i had feelings for) before him,
the next person i'll have feelings for,
i'll persevere no matter what,
but i think i shouldn't,
'cause God had convicts me in many ways & times,
& also it's a huge mistake that i had made,
'cause this feelings had also overwhelmed me.
God placed few close friends of mine,
who kicked some senses in me,
& reaffirmed me of my mentor's advice,
though those feelings linger in me for more than a year,
i don't regret it,
to even had such strong hope in it.
to me,
he's very attractive in the eyes of mine,
he's desirable in many ways, not in a lustful manner,
but as a strong man of God,
which is a non-negotiable requirement of mine,
thought i had strong desire for him to be my potential partner in life,
i thanked God for even waking me up from an unachievable selfish dream of mine,
he's a great guy that any girl would like,
but he's not the right guy for me,
so i chose to end it before it deepen any further,
the letting go process will be extremely tough,
i know that,
countless tears will be shed,
i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,
He'll be there to comfort me.
i'm grateful to those few close sisters in Christ who God had sent me,
who spoke wise advice & even kept me in prayer,
He's truly an awesome God that i love & serve,
He have shown me that i'm still not ready for any kind of relationship,
shown me how attractive a man can be,
shown me that i deserved a much greater than him,
he's great man no doubt,
but God has a greater man for me,
so i'll continue to wait on His perfect timing,
God is good all the time,
He deserved all of my praises!
All glory goes to Him, Amen!

see through my eyes ^_^

2011-03-13T00:44:00.002+08:00

my Ugly :)

my Gee Gee :)

Campus Camp 2011

Ruiwen :D '3 is better than 1' our song :)

AWESOME chocolate mousse cake! :D thanks Gabriel!

Jocelyn & Michelle :)

Tiffany & me :) ex-roomie!

waited for dad, went for an interview offered by the headhunter :)

Aglio Olio @ Al Fresco :) yum!!!

our pan-grilled salmon :) Yaling & Juiting!

Chocolate Sweet Heart @ Honeymoon with
Tiff, Meiqi, Victoria, Yaling & Juiting.

if God promised to grant you 3 wishes, what would it be?

2011-02-25T02:27:00.002+08:00

i came across this thought, so
if God promises to grant you 3 wishes, what would it be?

3 wishes as in 'earthly' desires...
for me,
1. to have an unbreakable love with the person whom i'll fall for (mutually)
2. to be contented with whatever i have in my life
3. for me & my family to have good health till our last breath

as for my 'spiritual' desires would be:
1. my love for God for NEVER go dim, continue to be passionate for Him
2. temptations of the world won't hinder me from God AT ALL!
3. a very strong inner spirit man, just like Jesus!

how about you? :)

Valentine's day :)

2011-02-14T02:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
& it's also my mom's birthday :)
tonight we'll be celebrating her birthday!
oh ya! i have a new kitten,
his name is Gee Gee, i'll upload his picture ASAP! :)
he's super adorable :)
my Ugly is not feeling well too :(
she hurt her paw, hope it'll heal ASAP too,
sad to see her limping :(

Valentine's day huh?
i never really get to celebrate it,
it's either i'll go out with my single friends (LOL)
or with my family :)

i admit that i still have fantasies to date a good looking guy,
especially with Kim Jae Joong :)
he's after all still my favourite singer,
perhaps one fine day i'll :) hehe!

let's eat kim chi together, yummy! :)

have you ever wonder?

2011-02-09T09:43:00.004+08:00

HAVE YOU EVER WONDER?

WHAT'S LIFE WITHOUT.....

FOOD

WATER

AIR

MONEY

EDUCATION

JUSTICE

PEACE

how about trust?

how about affection?

how about love?

how about religion?

how about God?

life without Him,

everything in life isn't worthwhile,

your sense of fulfillment will never be achieved,

i'm grateful to have Him in my life,

though not all everything in life i have,

but i'm still standing,

standing in awe of Him,

He fulfills my life,

in the little things

i do, love, feel,

in pain, betrayal, lost, disappointment,

He's always there for me,

i know He's...

there are things i'm still learning,

LOVE

love shouldn't be that complicate,

for God freely gave it us,

we should do the same,

learn to love the people around us,

our country,

country's leaders,

other races,

other religions,

other cultures,

to even love our enemies,

to love the one who're destined to be with,

i'm still walking through life,

learning new simple things everyday
under His guidance & amazing grace.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

dream?

2011-02-04T02:03:00.001+08:00

i been dreaming about the same person for couple of days,
that's weird,
especially the person i'm dreaming of,
why him???
i don't get it,
Oh my gosh!!!
what does that indicate?
i hope it's nothing...

Happy CNY

2011-02-03T00:50:00.001+08:00

Year of The Rabbit 2011

Wishing you all a blessed CNY! :) from me & Mr. Pink Rabbit

hey everyone,

how are you all doing?

having a great time with families of your own?

especially the reunion dinner we all had just now,
yum yum yum yummy!

i ate so much just now :S

great food & fellowship,

& yea,

who could ever forget the RED PACKET aka ANG POW!

my grandparents are staying with my family till this Saturday,

& we'll be having our open house this coming Sunday too!

so have another awesome CNY guys!

God bless! :)

she remembers

2011-01-27T22:45:00.001+08:00

somewhat i feel much happier ever since i let go of that 'bitterness'
which stayed within me for quite sometime already,
i thank God for helping me to go through it,
He ease all my pain & sorrow,
He's truly a God that's alive & cares!

i think the last time when i catch up with my mentor was end of November,
but that was a dinner with her & her family :)
it's nice to see them again,
Uncle Seliong, Auntie Annie & Daniel (her brother) finished his studies in Australia,
they're really like my family relatives (no blood relation) here in KL.

she also passed down some values to me,
shared Pastor Kenneth's heart, church & things to emphasize on,
i'm truly blessed to even have her in my life,
thought we're busy with different things & occasionally meet up,
it's good to have someone accountable to you,
to speak life in you,
watching over you & cares for you,
walk this journey of faith with you.

she inspired me in many ways,
the more time i spent with her,
the more i want to become something like her,
not to follow her completely,
but to catch the values in her,
the Jesus in her,
i want that,
to be a great mentor like her.

she even remember (him),
i was surprised,
she suddenly mentioned his name,
i thought she had long forgotten about my feelings for (him),
because the last time we talked about (him) was like last October,
she even joke about (his) perfume? :D

God really love you & me,
'cause he blessed me with people who cares for me (my mentor),
great brothers & sisters in Christ,
great leaders above me,
& my none Christian BFFs!
i hope one day i have the courage to preach the gospel to them.
& praying for their salvation...
to God be glorified & all praises unto Him!

forgive & forget

2011-01-22T23:13:00.001+08:00

i been resenting people who hurt me in the past,

that's why i been bitter,

as bitter that i don't know how's sweet taste like anymore,

resentment is killing the inner me slowly,

i felt like i'm drowning in shallow water,

why something so simple became so complicated?

i want my life to be filled with colours & happiness,

for God don't create me to feel bitterness only,

i thank God for even putting up with me patiently,

kept reminding me,

that i should forgive & forget!

many times, so many times,

that His voice gets louder & louder,

i guess i can't hide my inner most feelings from Him,

God loves me so much that He wants me to overcome it,

to even not giving in to the devil,

'cause it's not even worth wasting my tears for nothing,

it's not worth being angry for something that happened in the past,

i SHOULD move on!

for i'm sure the people who i resented had already move on,

why i should even place myself way back of them?

for i'm an overcomer in God's name,

i have God in me & with me,

for they don't, so i feel so sorry for them,

who persecuted me of because of Christianity,

i wanted so much to reach to them,

but i did, but i failed in doing my part,

so i surrender everything to God,

for Him to soften their hearts,

it's so difficult,

but i know God have greater days ahead of me,

i must learn from my mistakes,

not to fall into the devil's trap anymore,

enough is enough!

the greatest commandment for us as Christians,

to love our God with all our heart, mind & soul,

& also love our enemies.

my desire XY

2011-01-10T23:37:00.006+08:00

i hope that i'll sort out my feelings right!

in everything i do,

with my dear friends,

with the people around me,

even my feelings towards X remains unclear now?!!

to deal with certain people,

especially to that someone who had given such a headache,

behaving SO childishly! -look who's talking- *referring to herself now =.="*

i thought i'd treat Y better this year,

but Y started it by throwing me an atomic bomb on my 1st day,

praying for patience,
praying for Y to change & myself too!

even though i SO tempted to do the same!

thou shall not give in to temptation!

even my biasness? favouritism? should be @ the very minimal! :S

to achieve things that i put my effort in,

i know God has beautiful plans for me this year,

so i hope by the end of the year
that i won't have any regret or resentment!

i'll be more mature emotionally & spirituality.

Blessed 2011

2011-01-05T22:45:00.003+08:00

Blessed New Year everyone!

i hope everyone started their year with a :)

:) like this! LOL!

woah! time really really flies when you're having fun!

let's excel in things we're working hard for,

as for me,

studies is next to my 1st priority!

God is still my NUMBER ONE!

have a good beginning & great ending!

God bless! :)

HOME

2010-12-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back home, Kuching.

it has been like 6 months absent from home,

but i'll be around till the 29th,

:) glad to be back!

tonnes to do,

my family had been busy,

we'll be moving,

but within Kuching,

my new house is going to look awesome,

most probably will move before CNY!

that's all from me, well...

Merry Christmas everyone, God bless! :)

13/9/09

2010-12-06T11:36:00.005+08:00

Congratulations to those who got baptised yesterday,

as an act of obedience & faith,

as we're finally recognised by the public as Christian!

i'm proud of Jessica,

she been through alot,

but finally did it!

the old had died,

the new had reborn.

welcome to the family of Christ :)

flashing back the day i was baptised,

it was an awesome day,

eventhough my mentor at the very last minute wasn't able to come,

due to fever that day itself,

but did came to church for awhile just to pass me the flowers & mooncakes,

my dad came all the way from Kuching to witness it too,

just happy to be surrounded by the people who supported me,

that day was raining heavily too,

nearly 40 of us were getting baptise,

we're already wet even before we were fully submersed into the water,

:) indeed God can't wait for it,

He's too excited & happy for us,

He even shower the rain of blessing upon us!

i never regretted giving my life to God,

my life was more exciting than ever before,

more realistic & supernatural than ever,

God is just there for me,

affirmed me in many ways,

i'm proud to be a Christian,

the daughter of the King of Kings!

HOLIDAY :D

2010-11-30T02:52:00.002+08:00

what you'll see @ my study table

my classmates are posers :P

that's why i 'love' federal highway, always jam =.=

mini Kimchi pot :) thanks Jason Khong

Visitor's food from Actspresso :) yum! @ Full House!

I'm DONE! My holiday had just begun, now what? haha! :)

Love in the Ice

2010-11-27T01:39:00.003+08:00

冷たいその手君のせいじゃない
It’s not your fault those hands are freezing
幼き日々ほった　傷抱え
Born from those childish days you carry the scars
誰かを愛すること恐れてるの
Are you afraid to love someone?
言葉の裏側背を向けて
Pretending you don’t see the other side of the words
抱きしめた心が氷のようにそっと溶け出す
Like ice, the embraced heart slowly starts to thaw

誰もが誰かに愛される為に
For anyone to be loved by someone
この世に命を煌(きらめ)かせるのさ
Makes life in this world shine
それがもしも僕ならもう一度君の心を
If it was me, I’d make your heart warm once more
永遠(とわ)の優しさで暖めるよ…
With eternal tenderness

was taken from a song ' Love in the Ice'

Rare moments for me :)

2010-11-24T03:30:00.003+08:00

this was taken during last year's REVO conference,
one of the rare picture of my mentor, her mentor & myself :D

this was taken early this month,
(L) Melody, Dorin, Michelle & myself :)

ACTspresso teamie :D

i ain't see nothing yet, walking on this journey with awesome people that God had place in my life, the best is yet to come! Amen? :)

where are you going when you're going nowhere

2010-11-22T02:17:00.002+08:00

Pr. Andy Yeoh preached an awesome message @ Acts Church, 4pm service :)

Your potential is meaningless unless you understand your purpose!
Your destiny is more than just a destination; it's a journey!
To get to your destiny, keep moving forward!
Don't live in denial. Don't live in the past. Don't live in regrets!
The devil wants you to pass on, God wants you to move on!
The devil wants you to throw up, God wants you to grow up!
The devil wants you to give up, God wants you to get up!
Life isn’t about how many times you’ve fallen, but how many times you get up – and keep moving forward!
It’s a waste of life and time to do things God never told you to do. Life without purpose is time wasted!

Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a imperishable crown. Therefore i run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus i fight: not as one who beats the air. But i discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when i have -preached to others, i myself should disqualified.
(1 Corinthians 9:24-27)

couple of my favourite Nigahiga's videos

2010-11-17T16:16:00.005+08:00

i'm very blessed

2010-11-16T01:29:00.002+08:00

I was on the phone with my good old friend back from primary school,

the funny thing is,

we're going through the same thing,

though i didn't think as much as she did,

so i'm glad that she still shares her personal experiences with me,

i'm hoping that she'll continue to stay strong

& continue to persevere in all hardships,

knowing that God is 24/7 by her side,

even though sometimes He may seemed far,

praying for the right people to be able to go through life along her,

good friends, good leaders, and hopefully a spiritual mentor too.
most importantly, guidance from the Holy Spirit!

it made me feel that i'm blessed with such an awesome church

and a beautiful great woman of God mentoring me.

to God be the glory! Praise the Lord!

life as we know it

2010-11-10T03:37:00.010+08:00

7th November '10: AYA Awards Night @ Panggung Bandaraya KL

just ended my practical exam,

it was okay,

did my best,

surrendering it to God.

currently on study break,

will be preparing for my upcoming papers.

*nervous* 'cause in 2 weeks time,

oh well, i'll still do my best too! ^^

had another awesome prayer service,

felt God's holy presence saturating the house,

it's rather refreshing just being there,

where you stand as a congregation praying corporately yet also individually.

BCCP is around the corner,

awesome! i'm certainly excited about it,

hoping my friend that i been praying for

will find time to come,

he's dear to me (non-believer),

so it's something if he does come for it.

boy-friend?

asked by mom on and off,

many friends asked as well,

answer : you must be kidding, of course NO!

:D there you go... haha! :P

i'm still waiting patiently for Him & him,

slowly knowing more & more of him,

infatuated grows into love?

perhaps, maybe that's why i'm taking it slow,

committing me & him in prayers,

i know that God knows the best man for me,

so i'll continue waiting.

these are the part & parcel of what i'm going through,

does it amused you? :D

i think it does, in a way or two! haha!

God bless! :)

JYJ - Ayyy Girl

2010-11-01T23:49:00.002+08:00

Epic music video! ^^ Loving it!

BIG Campus Christmas Party

2010-10-23T23:21:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps! Why oh WHY are we having Christmas in November? Here's our top 3 reasons:

#1. We want to give YOU a taste of an Acts Church Christmas celebration before you leave for your respective hometowns!
#2. We believe that campus students can do SO MUCH MORE and that's why no one comes empty-handed! It's Christmas with a CAUSE! We're looking to bless 50 families in need in our community.
#3. Because we're fun, that way! :D

List of things you can bring to the PARTY:

1. Canned food (tuna/sardine, HALAL only)
2. Milk powder
3. Rice
4. Cooking oil
5. Biscuits
6. Flour
7. Condensed milk/creamer
8. Milo/Nescafe
9. Sugar
10. Instant noodles

so, are you excited? i know i'm, so i'll see you there :) for further / any inquires please leave a comment on this post :) then i'll get back to you ASAP! :) God bless!

JYJ is on Twitter

2010-10-22T23:03:00.003+08:00

Micky's tweet! :D

Micky ^_^

Uploaded by Junsu ^_^

Junsu's tweet :)

Jaejoong's kitten ^_^ uploaded by him :D

Jaejoong >.<

Junsu :)

Jaejoong's tweet :D

They're on twitter & i'm following, even though i couldn't understand korean! =.=
I was kind of sad when i can't attend their showcase on the 17th October,
but i didn't regret for not going either :)
no matter how much i love their songs, no one can touch my Sundays. Anyway, a job well done for releasing their very 1st english-language album :)

God is enough for me

2010-10-16T01:06:00.002+08:00

been down & upset few days ago...
even my mentor who i occasionally huddle with noticed it too,
met up with her last Thursday @ ReLex,
kept asking me how are you? are you really alright?
we talked 'deep' stuff,
somehow God knows when to send people to care for me at the exact time,
i was simply touched by His unfailing grace,
after my huddle meeting,
my tears can't hold back anymore,
so i wept for a while,
while God ministered and comforted me.

i guess i was at the moulding process,
God is doing something within me,
something in me that i should change since last time,
for quite sometime He kept asking me am I that insufficient for you?
for i failed to answer His question till last Thursday,
i reconciled with a friend and seek his forgiveness,
Praise God that he forgives me,
and apologized for not understanding my feelings.
i'm glad that everything turned out alright,
for God deserves all the Thank YouS...

thank you Lord for everything,
for i'm still learning to be more than like You,
re-surrendering myself to You once more,
for i want You to shine through me,
more of You & less of me.

Guard your heart

2010-10-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

Proverbs 4:23

Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it spring the issues of life. (NKJV)
Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. (NIV)

As Christians, we must be on guard all the time, the devil is always trying to rob us from God's blessings.Our hearts too can be very deceitful, when the DEVIL MEANT IT FOR BAD, BUT GOD MEANT IT FOR GOOD!

I'm still struggling with my emotions, trying my best to suppress it, but it failed countless times, but i know God is there for me, believing that He'll come through for me, therefore i must rely solely on Him and be accountable to my mentor.

Infatuation VS Love

2010-09-20T22:57:00.007+08:00

True Love: Has a priority to maintain a close walk with God and desires to please the Lord above pleasing a guy.
Infatuation: Thinks more about pleasing self and a guy than about pleasing God.

True Love: Desires to please her parents and seeks their approval in a relationship with a guy (whether your parents are Christians or not).
Infatuation: Desires to please a guy no matter what her parents think.

True Love: Desires the approval of godly friends and spiritual authorities (Pastor, youth leader, Sunday School teacher) in her friendship with a guy.
Infatuation: Develops a friendship with a guy no matter what others think and does not seek the approval of godly friends or spiritual leaders.

True Love: Is more attracted to a guys godly character than to his looks or popularity, and dresses to bring out her own godly character and keep from sinning.
Infatuation: Is attracted to the attention a guy gives and to his good looks and popularity, rather than looking for godly character. The guy is more concerned about your shape and bodily features, ad you tend to want to dress for his attention.

True Love: Desires to wait for any touching from a guy until the wedding day. Seeks to get to know her special guy as a person.
Infatuation: Desires to be touched by a guy without taking time to really get to know him first. Is not willing to wait for marriage for a physical relationship with a guy.

True Love: Willing to wait for God’s timing for marriage.
Infatuation: Wants to be married NOW.

True Love: Unselfish—thinks more about how to help others and gives oneself for others.
Infatuation: Selfish—thinks only about “myself and I” and what I can get out of this relationship.

True Love: Encourages one another in the Lord, reads God’s Word privately and together, memorizes Scripture together, and attends church faithfully. Desires to grow in the Lord and serve the Lord.
Infatuation: Not too concerned about reading God’s Word privately or together, memorizing Scripture, or faithfully going to church. Is more concerned of being with a guy and thinking about him than desiring to grow in the Lord and serve the Lord.

True Love: Works out disagreements with God’s help.
Infatuation: Quarrels often and makes up to each other mainly for the hugs and kisses.

True Love: Wants to obey regulations set down by parents or guardians, so are only together when and where the parents or guardians approve.
Infatuation: Pushes regulations set by parents or guardians such as when to be home, where to go, and not to be alone. Desires to do her own thing. Plans ways in which they can be together or talk or pass notes when parents do not approve or know.
True Love: Does not seek a friendship with anyone who has glaring faults.
Infatuation: Overlooks faults because, “He loves me and that is all that matters.”

True Love: Love grows, and all growth takes time.
Infatuation: Romantic infatuation may arise suddenly and without warning.

True Love: Love knows the other person more thoroughly and accepts both the positive and negative characteristics.
Infatuation: Romantic infatuation may arise from am acquaintance with only one, or the best, a few characteristics of the other person.

True Love: Love is other--centered and sacrifices to meet the needs of others.
Infatuation: Romantic infatuation is self-centered and looks at the other as a means to an end.

True Love: A person in love centers his attentions in one person only.
Infatuation: An infatuated person may be "in love" with two or more persons simultaneously.

True Love: A person in love feels a true identification with the other.
Infatuation: An infatuated person tends to think of the other person as strangely separate from himself despite their strong emotional unity.

True Love: A person in love tends to have a true sense of security in his relationship based on a growing range of trust and affection and mutual concerns.
Infatuation: An infatuated person tends to have a false sense of security about his love affair, which is based on wishful thinking, or sometimes upon a compulsive need for reassurance.

True Love: When in love this idealization is not so grandiose and it is checked against reality continually, and without fear or self-deception.
Infatuation: An individual who is infatuated sustains a mental picture of the object of his attention.

True Love: In love physical attraction plays a relatively less important role in the total relationship.
Infatuation: In infatuation physical attraction plays a more relatively more important role in the total relationship of the two persons.

citied from : http://ladiesinwaiting.net/DistinguishingLoveVersusInfatuation.aspx

Looking forward

2010-09-12T04:28:00.002+08:00

TO DO list:

MORE studying ( exterals are around the corner ) (O_O)
Assignments ( Optics )
Tests
STUDY God's word MORE!
TRY to update blog & twitter more often? :D
Catch up/ huddle with my mentor
wanting to meet up with Melisa soon, who had just finished her 3 months internship @ PD :)

11/9 Saturday:

Had a great day meeting up with couple of my primary schools 'loyal' friends after several months :) everyone seemed fine, happy and moving forward to our respective goals in life, flashing back on how we used to be (12 years), nothing but silly yet precious memories, we did came a long way, glad that we remained as good friends :) Resident Evil was (O_O) i have nothing to comment on.

10 days of prayer, praise & fast just recently ended, hoping & believing by faith that God will come through for Acts Church, as Acts continues to grow & move towards You...

World Changing Academy 2010, yes, its right around the around, i'm terribly excited to hear testimonies, experiences & word of the season from successful businessmen on how they be a difference in their marketplace yet being faithful to God, i'm ready to get inspired by what they have to share :)

Lastly, i'm looking forward to another great month, even through ups and downs, though struggles may occur, but i confidently believing great things are yet to come, because God is with me. :)

2010-08-27T01:07:00.001+08:00

"If Your Presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here." Exodus 33:15 (NKJV)

" If Your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here." Exodus 33:15 (NIV)

Ramadan HOMEs

2010-08-21T01:22:00.005+08:00

Shocked by the amount of food~! O_O

As you can see,

there's so so so much food on the table,

for we didn't expect it to be that much,

but we somehow managed to finish 80% of it.

This was our very own 1st Ramadan HOMEs,

thanks to Jason Khong's idea,

once awhile got to enjoy eating malay food,

we take-away from SS18's ramadan bazaar,
then shared it together @ homes.
see, we're so generous in sharing our food ;D

While enjoying all the food such as

satay, nasi briyani, mutabak, otak-otak &etc,

we watched Pr. Kenneth's video on 'Generosity'.

It was an awesome message preached by Pr. Kenneth,

i really like the part where he had a vision

on when he's in heaven,

thousands & thousands of angels welcoming him.

If one day we'll be greeted like that in heaven,

then why can't we be generous in our praises

for Him while on earth?

for He had never let anything from holding back

His abundant blessing upon us.
don't you felt blessed by Him~?
always remember to give thanks
no matter what's the circumstances.

Food, food & more food :)
bon appetit~!

God, let's do it together

2010-08-09T01:04:00.005+08:00

yes! Praise God of His awesome-ness yet another Sunday @ Acts Church~!
my 1st day serving @ Actspresso was fun & exciting!
though i still have lots of things to learn,
but i'm still looking forward to serve there again,
of course under the watchful eyes &
guidance of my beloved mentor Michelle,
who cooks awesome-st food ever,
not to mention being very pretty too ;)
so good-looking people CAN cook! LOL! :D

Pr. Kenneth Chin shared we should be generous in at least our:

time
talent
money
praise
prayer
dressing
experiences
testimony
giving the benefit of doubt

""If everyone wants to get, who gives? No one. If everyone wants to give, who gets? Everyone!""

Pr. Andy Yeoh shared that "it takes faith to start, but it takes faithfulness to finish"
We should 'die finish' means we should complete our mission/task on earth,
'cause God kept you ALIVE all these while to complete it! :) Amen?

what i had decided you may ask?
well, i had decided to serve at Acts Campus ministry,
reaching out to the lost souls on campus grounds for God!
i don't know lots of things,
but i know God is there to guide me,
my mentor & leaders will be there to support me too,
so i shouldn't worry much! :)
for my act of service/serving is only to please God & not man!

HOST Appreciation Dinner

2010-08-07T22:06:00.001+08:00

:D It was an awesome time of fellowship with all new & old hosts,
i felt blessed when others who was blessed by your services honour & appreciate you,
serving in this dream team / ministry enables me to serve God & God's people,
is one of those opportunity in life to serve genuinely with a humble heart,
training yourself to be selfless instead of being selfish!
it begins right from your heart & attitudes towards others!
examine your heart today~!
"your shape reveals your ministry, but your servant's heart will reveal your maturity" by Rick Warren

I found a very good website about "Dating & Courtship God's Way"
so check it out ;)
http://www.thercg.org/books/aadac.html

SJ's jam random snapshots

2010-08-04T23:04:00.001+08:00

"Summit" jam again? sigh...

this is so cute!!! crocs' camouflage, *cameleon & fruit*

flock of pigeons busyly poking through stones? :D

Awesome Sunday :)

2010-07-26T03:15:00.002+08:00

It is always a privilege to be able to serve & worship our great and awesome God! :) somehow after serving God @ church, my day became even awesome-r & my spirit was uplifted!
Pr. Kenneth preached such a good word, that our destiny is being an example/role model to others! but are you leaving a good/bad example for others? don't live by excuses but by examples! Always be faithful for He'll be pleased & glorified~! :D Do all to God's glory!

i really miss them :(

2010-07-21T22:00:00.001+08:00

Junsu, Jaejoong & Yoochun (TVXQ trio) lastest song...

chocolates :)

2010-07-20T18:10:00.002+08:00

a gift from Melisa (1 of my best friend) :) she gave me 'cause i did her a simple favour, i know right? she shouldn't have, but a BIG thank you to her who is currently @ Port Dickson for her internship... Melisa, wait for us ya? we'll watch the sunset together very soon :) *~3 is better than 1~*

my LAST day :)

2010-07-18T01:33:00.003+08:00

What a relieved that i finish my internship @ Focus Point, Sunway Pyramid! throughout my experience there, i learnt things OUTside college! it was fun, tiring & challenging, the people there were nice, thoughtful, considerate towards me, even though my time spent there was short, nevertheless, indeed God deserves the all the glory. Because of Him, i have favour from 'collegues'; because of His wisdom, i was able to learn things which will be useful for my future career; because of Him, i enjoyed my time there, & etc... God is awesome throughout my 1 month internship before entering my 2nd semester. My last day there was memorable 'cause i meet up few friends from Ausmat & Acts, lastly i was 'forced' to join supper after work @ Fatty Crab *yum!!!* which my manager 'belanja' :D He joked a lot regarding 2 guys who happened to be single there, 'cause the rest are either married or in a relationship, so you get the picture right? LOL!!! I thank God for such a fruitful & fun time! :) God is so so good to me...

♥Marriage♥

2010-07-11T18:17:00.009+08:00

Pr. Kenneth had shared an awesome yet strong topic for today, its about Vision, Value & Volunteer
- Vision gives you direction: revelation
- Only man makes contract/agreement out of fear/mistrust
- with God there's no contract/agreement, there's only covenant between you & Him
- for man & woman, difference draws attraction, but it may also draw irritation. there's never a perfect marriage because man & woman are different to begin with. But lasting marriages are miracle from God.
- When things turn out bad, go back to your vision. (go back to the day when you said your yow/the day you first fall in love)
- Values help your vision! "core values: beliefs"
- what's your values? to me: attending church at least once in a week is IMPORTANT! everyone's set of values are different! how about you?
- Is your spouse's values same as yours?
"Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with flawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness?" 2 Corinthians 6:14
- Pr. Sandra have always encourage us as man & woman of God shouldn't be unequally yoked with your future companion. For it will bring nothing but trouble, or maybe even make you leave God of out your life!
- Only God knows for sure how marriages will turn out, that's why man & woman of God with the same sets of values are able to through it well, for God's favour is in their marriage.
-Vision: stick to it! don't give up easily! would you pay the price?
- Volunteers: Passion starts when payment stops! for God deserves our best!
- for vision will come to pass when your values are set right!

This message had indirectly spoken to me, whereby i can rely on God in my feelings for *ahem-ahem* & also my spiritual mentor for direction & guidance, i'm glad that my mother been disciplining me, sharing with me about God+love goes together. Mommy said a million times: "don't even consider dating a non-christian!" :D thank God all of the my previous crushes are christians at least :3

Not to offend anyone here, but these set of values were already set in my life in a way, plus Acts Church's pastors also encourages to be equally yoke with your future husband/wife to be. I don't even care when people commented on how old-fashioned i look in relationships' matter, but i rather be old-fashioned than being in a relationship that isn't pleasing unto God or ended up getting hurt for nothing! for God is more important to me than the person i fell in love with. I'll continue honouring God, 'cause i know He'll honour me in return.

May God bless you~!!!♥ :)

Actspresso

2010-07-06T18:37:00.004+08:00

Thanks to my mentor i'm on Actspresso! Praise God! but will be starting in August, i had the prompting to serve at Actspresso (hospitality) for quite sometime already, i felt that i'm too comfortable with Hosting (ushering) in church! but the cool thing is my mentor had the same prompting too! :) cool right??? God really moves ahead of us!!! It will be challenging for me but not impossible! 'cause i'll be serving every week, 1st week for Host, 2nd week for Actspresso &..... Another great thing happened to me, i finally told my mentor about my feelings but not entirely all yet 'cause there wasn't enough time when we huddle last Sunday before Sunday service! but i promised her to tell her everything! :) Lastly, i recently work @ Focus Point for my practical exam's requirement, at least 200hours (to kill some time before entering my 2nd semester ^^ ), will be finishing by end of the July. Praying for favour + fruitful time learning some hand skills, working experience, & some PR! My colleagues are nice people, the funny part is most of them are married or in a relationship, so that's why i'm being tease for not being in either one, LOL!!! :D but i'll continue to praise God for all His goodness!

I need His guidance & wisdom

2010-06-30T03:42:00.007+08:00

A friend of mine (has a catholic girl-friend, my classmate, currently an atheist, chinese educated) just called me over the phone and talked about Christianity, conflict, science, confusion, his own theory of after-life & etc for > 1 hour. I thanked God for giving me such an opportunity to share Christianity with him, though i might not have the right answers all the time, but i know God will give me the right words.

I sensed in him (my friend) a huge curiosity of the existence of a God & wanting to believe in such belief. He told me something that really struck me: when I'm facing any problem regarding religion especially Christianity, i thought of you straight-away. I know quite a few christian friends but i prefer to talk to you about it he said.

I'm glad that i was remembered that way, being just a christian! though i can't answer lots of his funny & weird questions, but i told him I'll give you the answers after i refer from my mentor/leaders. I pray over his salvation & believing in it; pray that i may slowly erase that confusion in him. God, i know You're here with me, thank you Lord for using me in such a way...

love changes everything

2010-06-27T21:25:00.004+08:00

Even for love's sake, Jesus died on behalf of us,
how amazing love can be?
hoping that we may love Him in returned,
for He has first loved us.
Indeed His love is awesomely everlasting,
no ones' love can even be compared to His!

love is the most strangest yet beautiful feeling,
when you experience love,
it can't be explained most of the time,
though it sounded crazy,
but normally, you'll go for it!

as for me,
it really changes me in & out!
however i'm still waiting for an answer,
but i changed my prayer into making it happen!
no matter how long must i wait,
for i pray by faith to make my desires His desires too!
but this prayer requires more sacrifices,
I'm going to give my best for God deserves my best!
i can do all thing through Christ! Amen??? :)

if even my prayers are no answered the way i wanted,
I'll still love Him even more!
'cause that doesn't stop me from believing in Him!
i may cry for a month or so, but He'll be there to dry my tears!

RE:UNION

2010-06-15T22:57:00.005+08:00

Last year's REVO (revolution) conference @ KL was an awesome one, this year's RE:UNION (revolution conference) was even "awesomer" :) it was another blessed & uplifting one for me, that i get to enjoy & serve during the whole conference! no doubt it was tiring, but if its for God, i'll do it again with no regrets :) 'cause i'll offer God my best! :3 be sure to RSVP next year, i'm sure you'll be blessed!

2011 REVO tour (March-June)
@ Miri
@ Kota Kinabalu
@ Penang
@ Kuantan
@ Taiping
@ Melaka
@ Ipoh
@ Alor Setar
@ Kuching (my hometown) :D yeah!!!

for more info, please visit http://2010.urtherevolution.com/

see you there next year! :) God bless!

Thinking & Praying HARD!

2010-06-07T15:23:00.003+08:00

I been thinking hard about it,

what should i do with these feelings?

i know if i do it my way, my time,

it will result to tears again,

if i do God's way, God's time,

it will be best thing ever!

'cause i somehow want to scream it out loud,

of course not to him, he'll die of a cardiac arrest if he knows,
yup, I'm just exaggerating it!!!

but i can't keep it in me forever,

maybe it's time to share it with my mentor,

'cause i never share anything like this with her,

so it'll shocking & surprising for her i guess,

not that this is my 1st time experiencing it,
but maybe I'm just serious about it,

for now my mentor been busy preparing for Reunion,

so i guess when I'll tell her the next time we huddle/catch up!

but i doubt it'll be easy for me to tell her about this,

she's married, had a great husband no doubt,

I'm sure she been through what I'm trying to overcome now,

hope she can swallow whatever I'm about to share,

at the same time encourage me on how to deal with the right & God's way!

last night, God told me that i should give in more TIME,

still praying for confirmations & revelations!

whether it's meant to be or not meant to be!

I'm still waiting for an answer from God...

Life is all about Love

2010-06-07T00:49:00.008+08:00

"The entire law is summed up in a single command : ' love your neighbour as yourself '." Galatians 5:14

Because God is love,
love is in fact to most important lesson that He wants us to learn on earth!!!
Is by being loving that we'll be most like Him. =)
Even the highest form of love is through worship!
even Jesus conveyed his love for God on earth through worshiping Him faithfully!

the best use of life is love
# we should make it as our top priority because it's the most important part of our life & it last eternally! as it was also commanded by God to do so!
# love also leaves a legacy, As Mother Teresa said, "it's not what you do, but how much love you put into it that matters." woah!!! awesome right???

the best expression of love is time
# life is short that's why time is precious! time is the 1 of the greatest gift you could offer, just by giving someone your time!
Action speaks louder than words, if relationship is important for us, we should act it out by investing our precious time onto people's life! =) especially our with spiritual family, because we'll together worshiping God for eternally... isn't that just awesome?

the best time to love is now
# God will be there to provide us opportunities to carry out this trivial task! however, we don't know how much time we had left on earth, so all we can do is, do it now!!! 'cause we have no guarantee of tomorrow right? =S scary & exciting at the same time...

The Purpose Driven Life written by Rick Warren taught me a lot about the true meaning of life! =) I'm just glad that Michelle had given me this homework to finish reading this wonderful book! ^^

I'm finally back @ Subang Jaya

2010-06-02T14:45:00.006+08:00

Yeah!!! I'm back finally, 'bwahahaha' *evil laugh*
Got a very convincing warm welcome
from Michelle saying "welcome back to civilisation"
what was that supposed to mean? =S
anyways, moving to SJ from Cheras was quite tiring & troublesome,
i hope not to move out any time soon.
man, its hard work, up & down the lift, carried heavy-loads,
honestly i don't know why i had so much stuff =.="
of course my friend did help me, thanks a lot to her...
women are strong too k? guys shouldn't underestimate us XD
trying to adapt to new environment & hoping to look for a part-time job soon,
since my break is till from 1st May- 25 July, "geez" its a bit too long...
looking forward for my family's visit on 9th June & of course Acts Church annual event
RE-UNION, it's gonna be an ACT-citing time to fellowship with one another & of course more importantly to celebrate our God! none of this will happen if God's isn't in the picture,
you know what i mean, what's the point right?
See you there mates!!! ^^ God bless~!!!
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3 weeks

2010-05-24T18:44:00.002+08:00

woohoo~! 3 weeks absent from KL was really something, but I'm glad that I'm finally back, though my break ends on 3rd week of July XD Anyways, yesterday was an awesome day to begin with, Sunday Service @ Acts Church was awesome indeed, couldn't miss it for the world, right after that, at the very last minute i went for the Global Day of Prayer, big thank you to Mich @ Stadium Melawati, Shah Alam. I never been to such an event which was >10,000 people gathered together. =) God's presence was awesomely powerfully last night, glad that i was able to participate in such historical event. To intercede for our nation, even though we felt hopeless, God will turn it to hope, prepare for the worst but hope for the best 'cause God is alive!!! Let's put more faith in Him...

all things begins with Him

2010-05-12T09:29:00.003+08:00

What's your purpose in life you may ask, dreams? ambitions? goals? let's remind ourselves that God created us 1st, thus we're made for His purposes & will, we may pursue earthly things, but don't let God's purpose for us on earth hinder you from achieving it. To discover your purposes in life, refer to the manual book of life which is the BIBLE, nothing can ever beat His word.
"it's in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eyes on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of your overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone."

Remind ourselves that:

It's not about me
For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. ( Colossians 1:16 )

Officially 9teen

2010-05-02T12:09:00.011+08:00

Officially 19, the last year of my teen life =( i feel so old now. However, generally it was awesome, great time with food & fellowship =D

Thursday night went to Empire with Ruiwen & Melisa, walked around, ended up at SP's Kim Gary for dinner *more like a feast* ordered a lot, i meant seriously a lot XO, indulge in food, food & more food XD lastly had cheese birthday cake from them, i dislike cheese especially CHEESE CAKE, the shocking thing was 3 of us doesn't like Cheese Cake XD, so i asked them to take-away the cake for their family members, appreciated the cake & sorry for not accepting it =( but thanks for the Almond cookies too ^_^

Next morning, drove down to Klang, left my Midnight at Mich's parents house, later bought me to Centro for Bak Kut Teh & New Zealand Natural's ice-cream for desert, yummy~ thanks for the birthday breakfast Mich, helping me to take care of Midnight, to Uncle Seliong & Auntie Annie for sending me to KLIA =)

That afternoon when i reached KIA (Kuching International Airport) @Immigration area, i saw Daniel Shin =D cools, it was such as coincidence!!!

Last night went for dinner with my family, celebrated over food too =O then gave me cash, instead of giving me present, 'cause i really can't think of anything... XD Love you all~!

Lastly, i want to give a big THANK YOU to whose who sent their wishes via FB, phone calls, text messages... thanks for making my day WONDERFUL~! May God bless you all... =) it was a blast~! =D

Time to hit the books

2010-04-26T21:55:00.002+08:00

Revising my Optics with a pencil, eraser & calculator at the side, cup of warm tea, my netbook playing Autumn In My Heart's "Reason" Acoustic Piano Version...what an atmosphere for studying! All the best to those who are sitting for exams~! God bless! =)

Proverbs 16:16

How much better to get wisdom than gold, to choose understanding rather than silver! (NIV)

May =O

2010-04-24T23:45:00.006+08:00

April is fading, May (my month ^^) is blooming, same goes to my 1st semester! =D it was short but learnt lots of things & experienced many things, learnt from my mistakes, had already moved on -Praise God-, slowing walking the journey that God have intended me to go, it isn't easy but won't stop trying, learning to appreciated things more, yay!!! semester break is around the corner too, i can even smell it coming. XD

*Short update*: unexpectedly, next Saturday, I'm going back Kuching for roughly 2-3 weeks(max), going to miss everything over here though (church, friends, my midnight, shopping complexes & etc...) anyway, expecting great exploits to happen in Acts church tomorrow! Have a great Sunday everyone, God bless~!

Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing,

because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing.

[1 Peter 3:9 (NIV)]

2015 Battle of the Sexes

2010-04-21T00:11:00.006+08:00

Photos by Benny Lim, all credits to him...

Yet another awesome night spent @ Acts Church! it's my 1st 2015, even though I'm not a young working adult! XD Generally was a time of laughter, games, food & fellowship! To be frank, i didn't expect it to be that fun, 'thought adults are not fun!' XD of course I was wrong, it was Fun & Awesome, i laughed almost throughout the whole event especially during the main games session. T_T disappointed that guys =epic gender= winner of the battle, but of course for fun sake. =D I'm glad that i crashed the adults' event along with other brave campus students, Ya Ling, Patricia, Wen Ning, Kai Xin, Christine, (Charles, Jonathan Poon, Jonathan Chong, Chong Han, Edwin) serving that night! =D & most importantly i saw him & we greeted each other~! Yes, I really do need to deal with these feelings! God, help me! I know He will as I continue to sow into prayers & believing by faith & not my sight! I can do all thing through Christ! Amen! =D thank you for an awesome night, God!

Yummy deserts @ SS2

2010-04-19T22:51:00.004+08:00

Mango Loh ( my favourite)

Wet tissue

Honeydew Loh

Seaweed roll

Didn't catch up with Fiona for quite sometime,
so we finally did over desert @ SS2!
Bon Appétit!

loved the 'Mango Loh' =D

Satisfying till the last spoon ^_*

Shoo~! Shoo~! Shoo~!

2010-04-19T01:50:00.005+08:00

flashing back from that faithful day...

those was the best rides ever,

even though it's short...

enjoyed the melody you once played...

your absence making me wonder more...

your tempting smile melts my icy heart...

your voice colours the rainbow on my sky...

within your presence,

feeling of insecurity is definitely there...

shoo~! shoo~! shoo~!

what are these feelings?

can't fall asleep...

this is really getting on my nerves!

even my textbook aren't helping!

God, HELP ME~!

I seriously need You now~!

but I know that You grinning over me,

I'm so lucky to have You 24/7 by my side, Lord!

Awesome Sunday

2010-04-18T19:23:00.019+08:00

'Daim choco' given by Mich :)

It's another awesome Sunday @ Acts Church, initially Reessa & i are seated at MT corner, then i was pulled by my mentor, Mich to sit more front (at where most campus students are) =) it's indeed rare for me to be sitting together with her actually, usually we do sit nearby each other, but no always together ^_^ it felt as if it's been ages that i was able to talk to her personally...

Today, i was pushed & encouraged (she usually does that) by her to pray for someone i don't know, =S reluctantly i did obeyed her, if not I'll be lectured by her -nicely-, hehe! i prayed for a form 2 girl, =.= weird thing is i can't seem to remember her name~ it went well... but she seemed shocked that some random campus student prayed for her. XD I shake 2 newcomers' hands & proud of it, if not again, will be lectured by her (actually enjoyed it ^_* please don't tell her~)

Anyway, worship was lead by Pr. Alex (awesome time to praise & worship) & the word was preached by Elder Kien Yiak about Ezekiel 37. Before the service ends, had an alter call for various prayer needs too, just being in the presence of the Holy Spirit was wonderful & refreshing~ it's true that we're able to find true rest in Him!

"Son of man, can these bones live?" (Ezekiel 37:3)

- sometimes we collected & accumulated too many 'bones' for too long, it's time to surrender it unto God, time to move on
- our environment doesn't determine our breakthrough
- when you're ready to be lead by the Holy Spirit, be ready to be lead to the wilderness (not always to green pastures)
- Christians need to work on their attitude! (patient, temper & etc)
- the way you live, it's how you prophesy your life...
- God always see something valuable in something we see ordinary, common or even the natural
But let's always focus/re-look on how God sees things! =)

PS: i'm going to attend The Battle of The Sexes @ Acts Church this coming Tuesday -Young Working Adult event- ^_* i'm not even an adult yet, but it's gonna be awesome as well!

Car accident

2010-04-15T21:21:00.015+08:00

It happened yesterday 14/4/10, our Optics class ended 8.30pm on Wednesdays, & so had already decided on where should we have our dinner, it was nearby our hostel. We took off from college. Everything was fine, until i drove half-way stressed about what was taught earlier on, tomorrow's presentations (which i did today, it was okay), & tomorrow's Ophthalmic class & etc...! Stress about STUDIES! who wouldn't right? typical student's stress! Anyway, as i was turning from a 'L junction i think, don't know what junction is it called', i carelessly drove without thinking/seeing about the motorcyclist coming by, & so, he avoided me, my car was fine, BUT as he had successfully avoided me, he bang into a car 'innocently' waiting for his turn @ L junction!

This malay dude (motorcyclist's passenger) was so furious however the driver was calm. He kept on banging onto my car's window asking me to get out of the car, i rolled down my window, & told him that I'll, just let me park my car at the side 1st, as i'm blocking the traffic, he was super furious that he off my engine, literally shouted at me, "TURUN S'KRANG"! 1 kind indian soul (indian uncle) said let her park her car at the side 1st. OK, after i parked, he was furious, the chinese uncle that he banged into also was furious 'unlucky day for him', everything was so messy!!! but thanked God that i wasn't alone, my friend Shina (classmate of mine, currently pregnant -2nd child-) was apologising on my behalf. I, on the other hand was frozen, scared & shocked. More & more people came around us (malays) shouting this & that, I was really terrified (worried what'll happen next? am i going to be ok? is Shina & her baby will be alright?, how am i going to settle this? & etc...) that things will get worse, my mind went blank, then out of the sudden, I cried, just like that (for the 1st time i cried in front of a group of strangers). I just can't stop it from flowing...

Shina hugged me tightly, saying: it's only an accident, nobody got hurt, everything is okay, she kept comforting me & apologising to the people around at the same time, the kind indian uncle said let's settle it rationally, don't scare her already, can't you see that she's crying? (in malay). Shina then voiced out : okay, let's settle it, how much do want her to pay? the malay dude cooled down after the indian man talked to him, he answered, OK~, since my motorbic's damaged doesn't look bad, so i think RM100 will do. I calmed down a little too, gave him RM100, & they quietly & quickly left the scene. As for the chinese uncle's case, he wasn't furious anymore too, he knows that it wasn't entirely my fault, but i said, it's my fault, let me pay up for the damages, he got our contact numbers & my student ID. I'll pay up for the damages made, just tell me the exact figure tomorrow when you bring it for service. Shina drove us back after that.....

And so today, Jason Ton (another classmate of mine, suggested by Shina to accompany me) & i went nearby coffee shop waited for the chinese uncle & paid up RM500 (exact figure was RM710), but Jason insisted the chinese uncle to lessen a bit, since I'm after all still a student & it wasn't entirely my fault, the uncle understood, so he suggested RM500, he'll pay up the rest. I gave the uncle RM500 in cash, he looked shy accepting it, but thanked me for it & left. I'm just glad that everything was settled!

My testimony is that God's protection was DEFINITELY was upon me & Shina (& her baby too) that night, God do send kind-hearted person to help out as well (kind indian uncle for example) who took pity on us, understood us & the situation, talked to the angry malay crowd on our behalf. God also protected the people involved (malay dude & chinese uncle were unharmed too) during the accident. God also sent me good friends during those kind of situations, i'm grateful to Shina & Jason for being with me. God, thank you for everything, i pray that this wouldn't happen ever again & bless those who helped me. Thank you God for everything! All glory to You, God!

Heart

2010-04-14T00:09:00.008+08:00

The heart is the 1 who always deceives,
but you're the only 1 who can establishes your heart's desires & feelings,
but how?
what are my true feelings towards him?
a crush? admire? respect? like? fond? love? friends?
which? which? which?
but i can't help myself from being indescribably happy
when i saw you,

even happier when you said hi to me casually~
what is this feeling?
however i won't repeat the same mistake again,
indeed being in a relationship is common for my age,
but i want to have a God factor love life,
only God knows what's best for me,
so what i can do is,
continue to pray for that person & myself,
if it's meant to be, let it be,
if it isn't, then I'll quietly give up these feelings...
God, i surrender it unto You~
i can't do anything without You...

Dear friends, for you~

2010-04-13T00:57:00.004+08:00

The best way to destroy an enemy is to make him a friend.-- Abraham Lincoln

One who looks for a friend without faults will have none. -- Hasidic Saying

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.-- Walter Winchell

Friends are needed both for joy and for sorrow. -- Samuel Paterson

Friendship is the golden thread that ties the heart of all the world.-- John Evelyn

Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief.-- Swedish proverb

A friend hears the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails.-- Anonymous

Count your age with friends but not with years - Anonymous

Plant a seed of friendship; reap a bouquet of happiness. -- Lois L. Kaufman

friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway. -- Fr. Jerome Cummings

Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends. -- Cindy Lew

Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure. -- Jewish Saying

"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you."
-- Elbert Hubbard

"Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure."
-- Jewish saying

What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies. -- Aristotle

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.-- Albert Camus

"The only way to have a friend is to be one."
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

~God, thank you for blessing me for all of my beautiful & wonderful friends, each & everyone of them are unique, special, dear, precious to me, really 1 in a million, they're a blessing in my life on earth~ thank you God!~ =)

Let's rest in Him

2010-04-11T21:32:00.005+08:00

The Sabbath was made for man, not man for the Sabbath. So the Son of Man is Lord even the Sabbath." (Mark 2:27-28)

The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught. Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them,"Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest."
(Mark 6:30-31)

Sabbath is not about a day but a person 'God'! In Him, you'll find true rest! =) Trust in Him!

Met 林俊杰

2010-04-10T22:23:00.012+08:00

signed by 林俊杰

林俊杰 performed his songs

What an experience... meeting an actual artist for the 1st time, got tagged along by Serene & went to Sungai Wang, her initial plan was only to buy his CD & then wanted to see him in real-life, ended up staying for the entire fan-meeting. He sang 3 songs, i remember none. I just follow the flow, ended up buying his CD, got it signed on the spot & received a friendly handshake =) *does feel good though XD* My 1st time buying some chinese artist's CD =.= (a good chance for me to maintain & improve my mandarin by listening to more chinese songs i guess ^_^) his voice sounds okay, so i guess it's alright, he's cute, but 김재중 (Jaejoong) is 10 times cuter & hotter ;) anyway, today was generally unique & fun...

Happy Easter

2010-04-04T19:52:00.009+08:00

Happy Easter everyone,
I'm sure that you all did enjoyed Easter!
of course you'd 'cause....
JESUS is ALIVE & CONQUERED DEATH! =) Hallelujah!

What is in a name?

Reputation

Respect

Relationship

Response/Reaction

There's POWER in The name of JESUS! =)

We're living by Faith & not by sight!

^_^ let's also prepare ourself for the worst, but hope for the best! during the end times...

In His Name, we're able!

TVXQ, NO.....!!!!! T_T

2010-04-04T00:57:00.002+08:00

Xiah, Micky, Hero, Max, U-Know

"In 2008, TVXQ made it in the Guinness World Records for
having the world's largest official fan club. Cassiopeia, the band's official
fan club, claimed of having more than 800,000 official members just in South
Korea. They also made the Guinness World Records a second time in 2009. Aside
from the world's largest fan club, the group was also listed in the world record
book as the most photographed celebrity in the world."

"On April 3, 2010, it was announced by Avex that TVXQ
would cease all of their Japanese activities and will focus on help each members with their solo actives."
What am i supposed to do when you guys stop working & singing together as one now? T_T don't let us, Cassiopeia down! T_T please.....

Good Friday

2010-04-03T02:06:00.007+08:00

It was now about the sixth hour, and darkness came over the whole land until the ninth hour, for the sun stopped shining. And the curtain of temple of the temple was torn in two. Jesus called out with a loud voice, "Father, into your hands I commit my spirit." When he had said this, he breathed his last. The Centurion, seeing what had happened, praised God and said, "Surely this was a righteous man."
(Luke 23:44-47)
Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?" -which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
(Matthew 27:46)
Jesus was forsaken because of us, of our sins, because Jesus loves us so much. Because of His unfailing love towards me, I'm able to love Him in return.=)

Ephesians 6:12

2010-04-01T08:35:00.007+08:00

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers,
against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."
Ephesians 6:12
Know that God accepts you the way you are. You cannot do any works that will make you more acceptable to Him once you've given your heart to Him!
Isn't God Awesome? =)

5:09am

2010-03-29T11:07:00.007+08:00

woke up at 5:09am...
the streets was dark & still...
the city seemed on a standstill....
the air was cold & moist...
few vehicles crawled on the roads...
drove with lights & music on...
prayed for a safe journey to & fro...
successfully sent my friends safely to the destination...

6:37am reached home...
6:40am-10:44am i was in slumberland...
a middle-aged woman's voice called out...
heard the news of a housemate's checking out...
i'm expecting a new roommate by april...
prefers to be alone...
but it's unavoidable...
you can go back to sleep now...
but i'm already fully awake... =.="
what a day...

Are you ready to crossover? by Pastor Andy

2010-03-28T20:22:00.016+08:00

When we leave the old place into a new place. We're always expecting better things from there!
It's not only relevant in our daily lives, but it's essential for our walk with God too! Sometimes, we're haunted/hurt/offended by the past, but we should actually MOVE ON! we should deal with our mindsets! By all means, MOVE ON *la~*, for the person who hurt/offended you had already MOVE ON! by God's grace, we're ABLE! Nothing is impossible!

~His grace is sufficient for us, for His power is made perfect in weaknesses~

Expectations:

Victory
Possessions
Promises fulfilled

You need to leave 'Egypt' (your past)
Pack your bags (bring what is needed only
Let the presence of God lead you & take the God's presence with you
Take the first step (is always the toughest step)
Sanctify (consecrate yourself)

-Preached by Pastor Andy-

Awesome message! Inspired & encouraged by his sharing! How i wish that this message was preached last Sunday though, but i had reconciled with him *a friend*, it's not fully heal yet, but it's slowly healing, time will healed as well! I can do it! One day, we can be friends as we used to be, very soon... i can feel it... Thank you God for helping me! for You had never fail me nor forsaken me! All Glory to God!

Philemon was his usual self, self-proclaiming this & that! I enjoyed laughing at all of his super lame jokes, but I'm glad to see that we're like old buddies again & he's becoming more regular to church! Chareessa was like so speechless whenever he's in his super lame mode! XD Again, all Glory to God for His abundance blessings!

*retarded look*

A day with my primary school buddies

2010-03-27T21:23:00.012+08:00

haven't seen her for 7 years! finally i was able to! =D

Random shots, but you all are looking good =)

This gathering was kind of unexpected, but i'm glad that quite a number of us turned up! At 1st, we can't make up our minds on where should we eat, last-last, decided on BBQ Plaza! It was another great time catching up with each other! My 1st time experience singing karaoke! XD didn't expect any of them to have the passion to sing! XD Enjoyed listening to them singing their hearts out!

Remember Me

2010-03-22T18:50:00.008+08:00

Tyler (Robert Pattinson) & Ally (Emilie de Ravin)

Tyler & Caroline (Ruby Jerins)

'Remember Me' was a tragic love story. Robert Pattinson was so darn good looking! At the end, he died but his father reconciled, his relationship with his daughter turned out better than before! T_T oh gosh! Now his sister lost 2 older brothers. His girlfriend lost a mother & a boyfriend! How i wish to have such a loving & protective older brother like him!!! ^_^ i liked the parts where he protected his sister.

What a day!

2010-03-21T19:54:00.012+08:00

ACTSPERIMENT 3.0 First Half is out! It's totally awesome & wholesome! Today something unusual happened.
1st-ly, Cocktail came to church & sat next to me, i consider that's a miracle *for a person who doesn't go to church often* just the other day i was thinking about him, then today he's here. wow~ left me quite speechless! =) it's good to see you in church once more!
2nd-ly, Sony had finally spoken to me after 5 months of cold shoulder =.= this really shocked me, another annoyance that been irritating me~
However, i think is God's miracle! God, thank you for answering my prayers, He's truly an AWESOME GOD, a GOD who is ALIVE!

Huddle

2010-03-20T17:26:00.006+08:00

After huddling with my mentor, indeed it was always encouraging & it's nice to have someone to be accountable with... left me with more wisdom & more thoughts to be digest! I'll pray that everything that was passed down to me will be applied into my life! I thank God for her! ^^ because of her, I'm doing something that i never thought of doing before... like serving in church or even helping out in Homes... Whatever we're doing for God's Kingdom, it's for a greater purpose, even though there's many sacrifices & inconveniences!

3 person gathering?

2010-03-15T18:57:00.011+08:00

It was a very simple gathering, had lunch, chit-chat,

played few times of pool game...

Ben was like so PRO at it,

made Hsiao Shen & i lose terribly =(,

it's nice to catch up with each other,

2 of my primary school friends, Ben & Hsiao Shen.

& at the last minute, Thiam Hock's very late arrival,

didn't get to talk much with him,

but it's good to see him again =)

Talking about the past, makes me missing those days~

Had a good laugh, enjoy hearing stories of recent things that happened too!

before you know it, everyone is getting busy,

going to their own respective path,

but if we any opportunities to meet,

just try your best to make time for them as well,

because friends are precious...

no man (friend) is an island~ ^^

Discovering tiny bits of happiness

2010-03-07T18:44:00.012+08:00

After more than 3 weeks of absent from Acts Church, i feel so outdated & missed out on so many things! Arh!!! but after coming back, i realised that how much i miss this place, even though not having any relatives here, my friends, church leaders, my mentor, mentor's family have already becoming the important people of my life! just spending time with them making me happy for no particular reason, felt the sense of belonging i guess! i love the feeling of belonging to the circle of people i like/love! =) *NG* my mentor's husband 'merajuk' that Mich spend more time with me than him, which is not true & he just being friendly & funny. He stressed that whenever i look for Mich, i would always refer from him 1st. *Oh man*, is this a bad impression?!! forgive me Sern Yi~ =X

*SONY updated* for those who knows what I'm talking, here's a scoop on what happened, for those who doesn't know, then too bad ^_^. well, i don't really noticed his presence till he bumped into me countless time & also until my friend told me. I don't what's he up to, but *long sigh* it happened last time too, but I'll just ignore it, since he did the same! taste your own medicine, dude! =P ^_^ I'm mean right? well, know you know me~ Haha!

Anyways, last Friday, i had the privilege to drive down Klang to celebrate my BF's birthday, I'm so happy to see her happy that day, just those few hours spent together meant a lot to me, laughing & talking crap with them, making me miss the old days~ Tiny bits of happiness making my day AWESOME! thank you for Your abundance blessings God! =)

Satisfaction

2010-02-22T08:53:00.012+08:00

Satisfaction~ its a hard achievement!

but why not die hard trying to achieve it,

to my least expectation,

God, please do help me achieve it!

there are lots of things i want to achieve,

many things to worry about~

BUT...

put that aside first,

take it baby step at a time,

ANYWAYs...

I'm glad that I'm back with my parents,

learn new values from them,

as i slowly grow wiser,

wanting to be more mature & independent woman!

"i don't need a man, he'll only hold me down!"

this mindset of mine,

(which my parents said isn't the right thing to do)

" haha! but, let's see,

whether I'll be able to change it as time goes by~

well, life is still full of surprises!

God, please be there to guide & lead me to the right path of Yours!

Happy CNY 2010

2010-02-15T21:41:00.011+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR everybody!!! -THE YEAR OF THE TIGER- "grr~roar???" XD
well, its been awesome reuniting with family members & relatives who i didn't see them for ages, had a satisfy (团圆饭 tuan yuan fan) reunion dinner with my grandparents along with my auntie, uncle & cousins in Sibu~ thank God for the journey mercies that He had bestowed over me & my family (drive from Kuching-Sibu) roughly 6hrs, seen many cars involved in self accidents & had seen 2 cars, whose cars were badly damaged -i don't think the victims survived- which caused 1hr jam on the way to Sri Aman town's junction...

Anyway, its indeed a bonus to see my grandma & grandpa almost every CNY, & its a pity that i was unable to see my mother's side grandparents anymore because they had already passed away, they're in a better place right now, as me & my family strongly believe. God, i pray that this year will be the year of resolutions & revelations! God, i surrender everything unto You~ thank you for blessing me & my family during this enjoyable & wonderful CNY~

Campus Camp 2010

2010-02-08T22:07:00.009+08:00

AWESOMENESS is the only word can be described for this campus camp!

nothing but FUN time praising & worshiping God,

heard AWESOME, POWERFUL, INFLUENTIAL word of God shared by pastors,

AWESOME worship team,

AWESOME camp programs even though

for those who lack in stamina

-will experience some body aches-,

AWESOME fellowship with group members & drom-mates

& lastly AWESOME, SATISFY food!=x

Pr. Kenneth shared about Servanthood,

Pr. Sandra shared about freedom in Christ,

Dave shared about God's amazing grace.

after hearing those messages,

my spirit was recharged,

let the fire for God in me never run dim,

be filled with God's presence,

i want live a God-factor life,

living 1 & only life without regrets, guilt, shame!

now i'm excited for the upcoming REVO tours,

just signed up for Penang & Taiping! =)

God, let Your will be done in M'sia!

Midnight is DIRTY =(

2010-01-25T00:08:00.013+08:00

Just less than a week,

my midnight was showered by rain this evening

& covered by dust before that,

I'm getting used of driving it,

successfully drove it to church alone this week,

what a week! Praise God for everything!

XD had a blast at church with couple of old friends,

especially Ya Ling~

& my pretty mentor,

Michelle! thanks for everything!

lastly,

AWESOME message preached by Pastor Kenneth!

a message about RESOLUTION

all of us have the desire of being complete,

even the values of being complete is equally important!

don't let the devil messes with your values!

We're complete in God!

1% (one) makes a difference!

the word "Allah"

2010-01-23T20:40:00.009+08:00

why is it that people of all religion are quarrelling over the word "Allah"?

is it that big of a deal?

can't we settle it peacefully & rationally?

there's no need of burning down, vandalising churches & mosques!

isn't Malaysia supposed to be a harmonious country of diversity

including different races, different religious views & cultural differences?

if these issue worsen? then what's the point of 1Malaysia?

we should put aside our differences, embracing each other's views,

take further considerations before committing any irrational actions!

I'm very worried what Malaysia's future beholds!

but i know God has everything under His control!

Midnight is coming!

2010-01-20T12:42:00.005+08:00

Oh yay! finally i received a call from the delivery services "fellow" that i'll receive my midnight today, but i suggested that it should be sent tomorrow, because i'll be having classes till 8.30pm~ well, patience is killing me, but its finally paid off! "JB Girl" must be laughing now! XP anyway, its my free period (3 hours)- [taken my M'sian studies @ Sunway], anyway, today's lesson was 'kinda' interesting i must say, my eyes are getting tricked by +/- lenses, argh! how annoying! its very tricky & VERY confusing! Lord, help me!

ONE HOPE, FAITH, LOVE, GOD

2010-01-16T20:26:00.007+08:00

I came across this beautiful verse & so i decided to share it with you all and also Grace Global Prayer was the 10th church hit in M'sia! so Christians should reunite as one body to pray against all prosecutors & evil!

" There is one body and one Spirit - just as you were called -

one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all ,

who is over all and through all and in all "

[Ephesians 4:4-6 (NIV)]

Is my blog gonna survive?

2010-01-14T21:32:00.005+08:00

OMG! recently my blog is dying -drowning in the drain you may say so- gosh! well, a little update on my life recently, life is full of surprises, learn new things each day, do your best in very tasks/obstacles!
Optometry is like, well physics i must say, particularly on the chapter light i think, well, physics used to be my 2nd strongest among to the 3 sciences, 1st is biology, i must revise my sciences again~ haha! good for me!
For now, i'm having a room to myself now, i know that my ex-roomie -Spongebob- who misses me dearly, so as i! haha! my housemates are friendly, all of them are older than me by year & month. My classmates for this year, surprising is less than 25 people~
Life is so interesting isnt it? currently still waiting for my Midnight -my viva's name-, when are you coming, my dear? haha! well, i must patiently wait for it then, my dad said it will arrive most likely next week, finger cross! well,that's all i gotta write, will try to update ASAP! =P God bless!

a bid farewell to 2009

2009-12-31T14:18:00.007+08:00

well, 2009 just passed with a blink of an eye,

many things & feelings had experienced,

many pleasant memories are kept & treasured,

bad memories are send to the recycle bin to be disposed,

regrets are not meant to be forgotten but

to remind us of our mistakes,

2009 was a great one, meet a lot of great friends,

learned many things the easy & hard way,

expectation are unpredictable,

yet it hurts you when you didn't expect for the worse,

therefore when there's plan A,

there should be plan B as well,

life must go on, we must not stay still,

every good beginning ends with a good ending,

now welcoming & embracing 2010,

plan ahead, do your best,

embracing challenges, pain, hurt,

to mould yourself into stronger person,

with God by you side by side,

guiding & leading you all the way,

till we meet again -face to face-!

thank you God for everything~